I am stubborn! I am impatient! I usually always want things to happen according to my plans. But… that was me 2 years ago.
Now, I can confidently say that I have grown up and changed for the best.
I can still remember that day when God said “NO” when I want to proceed my application in one of the prestigious universities in the Philippines. That time, I know it’s actually not feasible for me to study there because of financial issues and because it will not let me proceed with the course I’ve always wanted, which is Psychology. That time, I am aiming for the best university to avoid being judged by others and to maintain the fame that I have. I complained a lot to Him and even questioned Him. But now, I understand why he said “NO” and it’s because being able to complete your degree in a prestigious and well-known university is not as important as being able to study and work in a field that you are really passionate with. I actually can’t imagine myself now being a nutritionist if I proceeded with my own ways. And I am very happy now working with a lot of people experiencing different kinds of disabilities and mental illnesses and being able to help them individually and their families. Thank you, Lord! Thank you for saying “NO.”
WAIT! He said that to me quite few times in life. But my patience is not that high to tolerate waiting for the things that I really wanted. During those times that I am looking for work, He never fails in giving me various opportunities to work with different organisations, which helps me with my financial needs. However, it’s not the work that I am praying for. But, it’s true, you just need to wait for His timing and He will give you the best. A year ago, I am looking for behaviour therapist job opportunities here in Melbourne and I really struggled a lot in finding one. I experienced a lot of rejections which made me think of giving up. And finally, I got one! And then I realised, He didn’t give it to me before because my schedules are not fixed, I don’t have a car, and I need more hours of work because of the tuition fees that I need to pay. And if I worked there earlier, I might ruined the schedule of the organisation and end up having a bad reputation, I might also had a hard time getting from one client to another if I used the public transportation and I might struggle more in paying my tuition fees because of the limited time that I can work. At the same time, I might not yet ready for that job because I am still adjusting here in Melbourne. Discernment is not my expertise. I am usually agrressive to grab opportunities given to me. But now, I have learned how to wait, pray, and discern properly and according to His time and His will.
Lastly, a big YES from God. It is when a certain blessing or gift was given to you in the least expected way, time, and setting. It might also be something that you have been praying for but not expecting it to get immediately. It’s like when I found the love of my life (a bit cheesy) haha. He’s my God’s Greatest Gorgeous Gift. We’re not a perfect couple but there’s something greater than being perfect; it is when both of you are working so hard to make your relationship last forever. A relationship full of love, trust, and respect. A relationship that knows how to honour both of our parents. A relationship without competition. A relationship with pure and Godly love. Love that is patient, kind, selfless, not easily angered, protects, hopes, and always perseveres. God gave me the best! A person who will not leave me at my worst. A person who will always pray for me. A person who wants the best for me. A person who will take good care of me. A person that respects me. He’s one of my favourite YESES in life!
All of us might experienced or currently experiencing a NO, WAIT, and YES from God. But I am a living witness of His greatest love and mercy for everyone of us. We just need to trust Him. He has a reason for everything and believe me when I say that He wants the best for us and He will never leave us because He LOVES us! Always pray for a humble heart! A heart that will always trust Him; a heart that knows how to accept His noes; a heart that will patiently wait for His answers; and a heart that will praise His name for His big YESES!
Miracales do happen everyday! ❤️
And for that, May God be Praised!